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[somedaybitch]

so i'm watching Alias, Season One. it's a Sydney!VaughnAthon at Casa de Guppy. themonkeycabal's ignoring writing and i'm ignoring the script breakdown. it's a good time. :D

so right now, we're at the first of two eps where the human rights guy has a bomb in his heart. the previous scene is where Syd's supposed to meet SpyDaddy for dinner and he caves, calling from his car while watching her sit pathetically waiting for him to show. (love JackTheBastard.) there's also the annoying Francie c-line about her fiance being a lying, cheating fuck, to which i say, "yawn".

anyway, the music that was playing in the backround was "Angel" by Sarah M. i hate that song. 'k, not really but really. hate.it. i blame my friend. she died. i guess it's kinda crappy to blame a dead friend but there you have it. i'm sure her widow found the song really comforting or some such drek but i so associate the song with the rosary held, that i can't even hear the opening keys and not feel my stomach clench.

stupid Alias.

actually, to be perfectly honest i blame Farscape. well, really, i blame my ex-husband on accounta what would be my anniversary is coming up this month, but it's more fun, and sounds less pathetic after 9 years if i blame Farscape instead.

we watched 4.5 last night. the scene at Serenity Base in Bad Timing nails me like a sucker punch every time. stupid really, on accounta i know it's coming but there it is. John gets to say goodbye to his dad before John leaves, possibly forever. i didn't get to say goodbye my stepdad when he died. i can't not draw the parallel. can i blame Ben while i'm at it? it's his damned acting. i'm gonna blame Ben, too. 'k? 'k.

stupid Ben.