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[somedaybitch]

the problem with aging, other than the obvious gripes, is that everyone ages with you, in direct proportion of course. like parents. like a parent that, in a sanity-saving measure, you cut out of your life long years ago. like said parent that then has the effrontery to be dying, rather unpleasantly it seems. my brother apparently knew, as he was in Vegas today and was leaving this evening to catch a flight back to Michigan. guess telling me was rather too grown up a task for him. in his defense perhaps, i don't know that i'd tell me either, but i certainly expected him to tell my mom, who would then tell me cuz she's got balls of steel like that. there i go thinkin'. instead, i got the call from his caregiver of 3 years, who, judging by the phone call, sounds like an amazingly compassionate woman. but then you'd have to be to do that job, wouldn't you? so i find myself conflicted, not a little numb and planning an unscheduled road trip this week.

and so it goes.